In my previous blog I mentioned that I hate diets.....Here's why. They set us up for failure. Ok, we might achieve our goal weight (on the scales) and feel pretty damn good about ourselves but what happens when we go back to eating the same way. The numbers on the scales creep back up past what we were BEFORE we went on the diet. ARGH!
Why do we even care what the scales say? Shouldn't we be happy being active, healthy and alive? Somehow somewhere there is a screwed up message that says "if you are X-weight on the scales, you too can be BETTER!" How does being lighter, or thinner make us better or happier?
I got caught up in this nightmare in my early 20's - I was back in Ballarat (again), so didn't want to be there. I'd somehow found myself in a relationship (I wasn't a very confident person) the year before in Adelaide and didn't want to leave him. Anyway that didn't last long with me back in Ballarat and, in my misery, decided that part of the reason why he'd found someone else was I that wasn't skinny (pretty) enough (yep it was all MY fault!). I counted and cut calories. I started burning off the calories I'd consumed that were over my calculated BMR: 2 aerobics classes back to back everyday plus games of netball and heaps of running. It didn't take long for a full blown eating disorder to erupt.
E.D and I had an ongoing relationship for 15 odd years. I tend to not look back on my life - it would mess with my head too much -the things I have missed out because I was unable to see past ED (no different to any other addiction). I take the view that I went through that experience and can now use that to try and guide others through the mess that is the weight loss industry.
I used to be so restricted with my food; following a vegan diet because it avoided fatty foods (I stayed away from nuts). I'd do my Dad's head in with my measuring and weighing and portioning up of food. He say I had too much free time on my hands.....It was simply one thing in my life I could control, when everything else felt out of control.
How did I managed to break up with E.D? I spent 12 months in Japan, which gave me time away to reboot my head. The longer between episodes the shaper my focus became and I simply felt better! The final piece of the puzzle was when I started Metabolic Precision. What I have learnt during my MP study has changed how I view food and removed the fear of eating real food. No more counting or cutting calories. I don't think ED and I have truly ended our relationship; like anyone who has had an addiction, you are always aware of what has been and don't ever want to go back.
I now eat 5-6 meals every day. More food in 1 day than I probably used to eat in a week and I am so ok with that now. People probably still think I am too restricted with food as I tend not to eat pizza and other things that are considered treats or normal foods. Part of the reason why I don't is because I simply can't eat them, they make me feel really, really weird (Sugar rush or such) Besides I've done enough harm to my body over the years, why would I want to put anything else in it that is not beneficial. I need to do right by myself for now on as I need this body to be strong and able for a few years yet to come!
Metabolic Precision is not a cure for eating disorders. But for me it has been the safety net I needed to be able to eat and train in a manner that will allow my body to heal and recover from the years of E.D. I am now in my 40's and I can quite easily say I am in the best shape of my life.
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